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mica
michaela aguilar. mica. micx. former augustinian. lasallian. future teacher. love my family. love my friends. simply me...just a girl looking for purpose...
interests;
shopping. eating. laughing. smiling. swimming. listening to music. playing the piano. watching tv shows and movies. reading books. appreciating nature. dreaming.
media;
harry potter series. tuesdays with morrie. five people you meet in heaven. the alchemist.
click. big daddy. 50 first dates. wedding singer and almost all adam sandler movies. a walk to remember. finding nemo and other pixar movies. white chicks. shrek2. dangerous minds. bridget jones' diary 1 and 2. pirates of the carribean 1 and 2.
alternative. rock. bamboo. kitchie nadal. urbandub. up dharma down. sandwich. john mayer. coldplay. the killers.
FRIENDS. sex and the city. the OC. one tree hill. project runway. LOST. wwe. late nights with conan o' brien. discovery travel and living.
photos;
redbox!
white cove
my debut!
my multiply!
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| oh happy day |
[ Thursday, December 14th, 2006 @ 2:06pm ] |
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it's been awhile since i felt this free. it's finally over...eff!!!! i luvet!!! this term has definitely been another hard one...but i've learned so much...and i've enjoyed it...despite all the sleepless nights. i'm lovin' it...oh happiness...
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[ Tuesday, November 7th, 2006 @ 3:12pm ] |
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just have to let this out...i feel so effin tired...and i still have so much to do. although what was nice today was i actually accomplished a lot...and i feel good about it...although...i still have lots more to do...hahaha!it's just nice that despite all these things i'm still able to keep a smile on my face and simply enjoy or see the good in what i do. but you know what...i badly need sleep...hahaha...
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| unlucky yet so lucky |
[ Friday, October 13th, 2006 @ 3:42pm ] |
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when it rains...it really pours. after stayin in a happy state for a week...life just keeps on challenging you. it has certainly a way of balancing things...cuz the faster you go up...the faster you go down as well. started my unlucky streak last night...i was already havin problems with my studies and my piano...then finding out another problem about my family...simply weakens me to the point that i could have almost broke down. i just felt being torned between savin our family and savin someone from gettin hurt. i'm scared that this would soon be clear...but i'm not gonna back down without fightin for this. wakin up i was in a better mood with a little help from above...but it soon came to a stop when i got a low grade in a major subject. what pisses me off is that i don't like the professor to begin with...and i didn't feel that i deserved the grade she gave...simply unfair. i take my majors seriously...but this...i jst can't take. to add to that...pressure from my org...i jst can't take it sometimes especially when other people can just leave responsibilities to them...and they can simply let go of those responsibilities without caring for those who would be affected. arggh. to top it off...i was assigned to do a last minute shopping...just to find out when i was about to go home...it was raining so hard. literally...when it rains...it pours.
over reacting...? i gues... ranting...? yeah...maybe i just had too much today that i felt overwhelmed with everything else. but what was nice today was that at the end of the day i still felt happy...i still felt safe...coz i knew i had my friends around. receivin wonderful advice in the morning...gettin a hug in a very stressed situation...and havin conversation about the whole day simply tops it off. i love my friends...simply gives me a reason to smile amidst everything else...*hugs to all*
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| what i miss |
[ Wednesday, October 11th, 2006 @ 2:52pm ] |
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been in a slump in school these past few days. can't seem to focus...and i have been half-assing my work lately. i hate the feeling not bein so motivated in school these days...it's quite disappointing. i just lack the drive right now...x.x
oh we can never have everything...can we? whenever there's a portion in your life workin out, there must be another aspect not goin so well. simply life and its beauty.
after a blissful state...i've decided to take control of other things again. sometimes happy states make you lose control and forget. a feeling that you could just stay in that state without thinking about anything else, but i can't, you can't...no one can. certainly one of those days that i miss great conversations with my friends. i guess sometimes we just need someone to help us make sense of the world that we seem to live in...rationalize the things around us...make us understand where the world is coming from. i miss those conversations...bein able to talk about anything and everything...no limits...no barriers...no judgment...just great conversation.
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[ Wednesday, September 27th, 2006 @ 1:10am ] |
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it's just starting to sink in...:( i can't believe both my grandparents who used to stay here...are now gone. it such a bittersweet feeling...glad that they were able to rest peacefully...but at the same time sad that people who were once a part of our lives are now gone. i'm surely gonna miss both my grandparents...actually three of them already have passed away...and i'm gonna miss them all. i pray that they are all happy together in heaven watching over us. i know i have never said this to them...but i do love them...even with the short time i had with them...i know that they have left a mark that would stay with all of us forever.
the other night i asked my mom why we left the light in my grandparents' room open. she said, "maslalo ko lang naaalala na wala na sila mama..."
awhile ago...when we were lookin at lola's body one last time...she said as she was crying, "wala na kong parents..."
i could just feel my mom's sadness and that we couldn't do anything to make her feel better...don't worry ma...we'll take good care of you...we love you...
R.I.P. lola big...we love you...and we're gonna miss you...:,(
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| happiness doesn't mean contentment... |
[ Sunday, September 3rd, 2006 @ 8:45pm ] |
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yesterday i had a long talk with my brother...one of those talks that simply teaches you a lot. it started out with a simple conversation about something in school...that turned out to one of those conversations that you could just learn so much. there were tons of things i'd like to share but i couldn't really remember everything...so here are a couple of things that i did remember...
i told myself not so long ago that one thing that i wouldn't compromise are my principles...but what if adjusting your principles will lead you to better yourself? i have an attitude of being stubborn...that i tend to look at things in certain ways unless proven otherwise. i still need persuasion for me to agree to what you're saying...that's the kind of person that i am. i won't agree immediately...i need to think about it first. yes...stubborn...i may be...but i guess that's the way i am...and i think i should change that somehow. i need to open myself to different perspectives and see things in a different light. there are answerS to a problem...we just have to find which one works for us. sometimes when we don't think outside the box...we hinder ourselves in moving forward...see things differently...it would certainly make a difference...even the slightest one...
work hard + work smart. realistically speaking...in this world...working hard isn't the only thing that would get you to survive. yes...one should work hard...but we have to work smart at the same time. after talking to my brother i've realized that sometimes working hard isn't enough. i admit...i am more of the hard worker rather than the smart worker. i'd work hard...because i believe that eventually it will pay off or pay fair rather. in an ideal world...yes that is true...but not in the real world. i may have been fortunate enough to have experienced that so far...but there are things in life that you have to push and make things happen for yourself. a talk about applying for scholarship made me realize that if i don't push hard enough...there are things that won't come into my life...i have to work for it and at the same time make things happen. two different things...but when you're able to make it work...rewards can certainly be great.
happiness is contentment. i beg to differ. i don't think happiness is contentment. we can still be happy...but at the same time we would still yearn for something more. it doesn't necessarily mean that wanting more is a form of greediness...wanting more is yearning more...aiming for something higher...to become the best that we can be. our life would simply be a life of continuous learning. one doesn't simply end in knowing what they have learned today...they become more ambitious...they aim higher...a continuous improvement of one's self. i can be happy but at the same time...still want to be better than what i already am. as what the socrates said, "the wisest man is he who knows nothing..."
as we grow old...as we learn more about this world...life gets more complicated. the more knowledge we have...the harder life gets....hard gettin old ain't it???
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[ Friday, September 1st, 2006 @ 11:40am ] |
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call me that...hate making a fool of myself. but sometimes we just have to...to learn the hard way. crap. i need to get out of this shithole...been here too long.
PATHETIC.
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[ Sunday, August 27th, 2006 @ 5:20pm ] |
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i'll have it back now. may be i still have my bad days...but i know this time it's about me. not only do i have to prove it to myself but to other people as well. i've done worse...so i know i'm doin better. i have been. i just have to stand my ground and hold on to it.
i feel better...thanks ian!:p
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[ Saturday, August 12th, 2006 @ 2:13am ] |
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tired. sick of it. can't. end this.
jaded. consumed. vague. gray. end. wish. hope. myself. reward. happiness. bliss. reality.
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| psychosociology: love and nonconformity |
[ Thursday, July 13th, 2006 @ 12:03pm ] |
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i've been meaning to write this earlier this week, but i haven't had the time to write it...anyway here it is.
9:59am
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psychosociology
i'm a girl who believes in psychology. when the term started and i had INTROSO (introduction to sociology), i had a hard time putting society into context when i believed that we are in control of our own lives. sociology kept on saying how what we do is affected by society, that everything we do is dictated by society. being a believer of pscyhology, study of the individual, i had difficulty making sense of sociology. however, as the term's progressing, i understand where sociology comes in. i ended up thinking that to explain our lives better it's a mix of both. yes, we are still in control of our lives in the sense that the things we control are the things that can indeed be controlled. however, there are things that can't be controlled, and it influences how we make our decisions. we have the last say, but this last say has to take into consideration everything else. it's basically free will, but it is indeed influenced by other people. psychosociology as i may put it...
love and nonconformity
(note: for guys...finish the whole thing before you judge that i am stereotyping...)
the other day i had a couple of conversations that brought me to love and nonconformity. i was talking to a guy friend and he said that even when there are guys who prefer to be loyal, majority of men will look for so called "greener pastures" as we may call it. they won't be satisfied with one; they would have other girls on the side. even men think themselves that it is indeed nature for them to do so. then a girl friend of mine, supported that statement. for some reason i ended up believing it too, because i've seen men whom i looked up to, who have done it once or twice. they say that it's okay becuase at the end of the day, they would still love the same person they are currently with. at the end of that conversation, i ended up saying that as long as i don't find out, and other people who care for me don't find out...then i guess i'm fine with that. this simply made me doubt loyalty in love. it made me sad though that we were destined to end up this way.
then a discussion in our sociology class made me hope in love again. we were discussing about gender, and we came into talking about nonconformity, when men and women deviate from what is expected of them. we were talking about women who were liberal, and our professor said that these people who deviate from what is expected of them should never be judged. these people are happy with what they are doing, and we should love them for that. he also mentioned that it goes for men too, not all men are the same. there are those who deviate from the norms as well. one who would prefer having a single person to spend their life with, rather than multiple relationships. a guy who would turn down a beautiful girl for sex, something certainly unexpected from them.
maybe that's how people believe in love. simply find someone who would accept you for who you are and deviate form what you expect of them. well at least this gave me a ray of hope...simply hoping for the maybe's...
10:50am
pardon the contemplation...my friends and i rarely have the chance to talk about these things anymore...at least here...i still get to tell them somehow...miss my chums!:)
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